Life as a bipolar teen!
16 year old female
My life as a bipolar teen! Being 16, I've always known that my mood swings weren't normal for kids. I mean sure, everyone has mood swings, and hormonal moods. But I knew mine weren't just my hormones.
One week I'd be extremely low and contemplating suicide. I didn't see a better life ahead. I had made many attempts to end my life because I was so low. On the other side of the spectrum I'd be energetic beyond that of anyone I knew, I would talk for hours on end and the teachers at school couldn't get a word in edgeways.
I'd run around aimlessly and I couldn't sleep. I was in pure euphoria. I'd have my normal days where I could just relax, sleep was normal. I'd focus moderately better and my behaviour was heaps better. I'd also get angry extremely easily.
Something as small as someone walking a different direction would cause me to throw anger fits and hit walls.. Everything I did was on impulse, I'd spend without thought, have sex without thought and speak before I could think. I got expelled from one school, and was on the edge of being expelled from my second.
I finally realised that none of my mood swings were normal, so I took a big step and talked to my mum. Bipolar disorder ran in her side of the family and she had always seen that trait in me although she would never say it in case she offended me.
I spoke to my local GP who was extremely worried about my condition as I'd been so suicidal and down. He urgently rang a psychiatrist who fit me in straight away. I had two options at that point, Go to the pshychiatrist or the doctor wanted me admitted to hospital. I couldn't stand being in hospital so I reluctantly went to the pshyc. He recognized my condition straight away. He said I had bipolar and that I had done the right thing going to my GP.
I was put on medication. I'll be on it for the rest of my life. I want other teens to realise that mental health issues aren't taboo any more and get the help they need. It's good knowing I'll get better eventually!
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