Parents fighting, doing drugs
18 year old female
When I was 11, my parents were always fighting and doing drugs. I found it hard to deal with my family life. I was upset and things got really bottled up. I had no way of dealing with things. That's when I turned to self harm.
I started high school, my parents were still together, I stopped the self harm but I started to rebel in school to deal with my emotions. I got suspended, bullied people, I even started smoking cigarettes to control my pain and hurt.
When I was 15, I settled down. My parents broke up but it got worse. My dad blamed me for the breakup - and he stopped talking to me. My mum emotionally abused me - I was so down and depressed. Then one day I got into a fight with everyone and my bad habit returned. I had so much pressure hiding it everyday.
At the start of year 12 I needed to get help as I was out of control and finding it difficult to do activities that I use to love.
That's when I picked up the phone and dialled Kids Helpline. My heart was beating so fast I hung up and then I went online and I looked at the Kids Helpline website. I saw the email counselling but then it took days and days before I got a reply, so then I went on web counselling.
I started talking to a counsellor and then I found the courage to ring up and I was finding alternative ways to deal with everything. We talked about everything and anything - it was like my own best friend.
I have not self harmed in over a year. Things have been great.
I don't wish anyone to start this horrible habit - seek someone to talk to like Kids Helpline when going through a rough time. Anyone going through self harm, you are not alone. While talking to Kids Helpline, they told me they get a lot of teens struggling with self harm. I want to help teens dealing with self harm so if you or someone you know is dealing with it, seek help - it's better in the long run. Thank you Kids Helpline.
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